After all these years of
mission, there were plenty of times when I felt tired, dry and empty and so it
is now, it comes sometimes occasionally and sometimes frequently. These kinds
of things make me question why am I here in the first place? Why am I in
mission? What if I live a different life? Tiredness, dryness and emptiness
really drive us closer to the question that matters in life, whether we like it
or not.
Affirmation, consolation
and blessings of course come along, unexpectedly most of the time. But the
questions linger on… and so I’ve learned to live with it and came to the
conclusion that sometimes questions are much better than having answers. There
are things that are beyond my understanding and to accept it is to “understand”
itself.
However, though
questions persist, life and mission itself continues. And I found that as long
as I continue my life and mission, answers do come along the way.
So is this journey worth
walking for? As long as I am with God and my life is for God, I believe I am on
the right direction and the journey is more than worth walking for.
Mission after all is for
others more than self and so while we question, we continue the mission, we
fight the good fight and run the good race, because as G. K. Chesterton said, “The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front
of him, but because he loves what is behind him.”
by aats
People go through stages, no matter what profession they are in or what career path they have chosen. We all go through a dry period in our lives when we question the choices we make and we become anxious of the future. We are allowed moments of weakness and it is during these times when we are reminded of the outpouring of blessings from God. With all the times God has shown up in our lives, we still doubt and it is okay because He wants us to be real with Him. He allows us to throw a fit because He knows sooner or later we'll come to our senses. Such a patient Father He is! So to question is normal but remember that He is faithful and He always answers our questions even though sometimes the answer is "no".
ReplyDeleteLove your quote from Chesterton!